Baby, we have gone a long way.
We started out as very different people. I had short, half blonde hair. You had long hair. And look at us, now.
It all started out when I decided to crash your condo with my friend. I was in a very painful mode, a despaired soul, heart broken and with lack of faith in this world. I was a girl who was honestly love-impaired, I hated anyone and I cried all the time, on buses, when I listened to love songs... anywhere that reminded me of good times that I have had. Happy times which used to belong to me, that were robbed by a heartless someone.
Meeting you somewhere so private wasn't anything I have imagined in meeting a soul mate. Staring away from you in the jacuzzi felt like ages when you and your friend were trying to strike a conversation. Irritation got in the way and I've decided to turn around, face and patronise you guys. I wanted to end the conversation asap. I remembered you standing beside me, waiting for us to pack our bags and fetching us to the restroom. You talked to me. Afterwards you guys wanted our numbers and facebook. Instead of giving generously, I disappeared into the restroom and we never contact ever since... till two weeks later. [by the way. I cant believe you said you almost broke your arm doing weight lifting in the gym when you first saw me walked past. Crush at first sight, you said. >:D HAHAHAHAHA!!! So funnyyyy]
Two weeks later, you got hold of my facebook from my friend, and added me. YOU DIDN'T TALK TO ME! You just left it there, like a dot dot dot. You were shy, you said. That was cute baby. (:
Then two more weeks past, you decided to chat with me. That was the night it started going smoothly. You asked on fb if we could talk on msn. I felt curious about you so I accepted. We talked while I was playing Tetris [sorry baby! Tetris was my fav game and you were 2nd in priority then] and I replied you once in a while. You suddenly talked to me about you smoking and d***ging. That did catch my attention. I was trying to be cool about it, so I simply typed, " Sorry, I dont hang out with smokers." Somehow that sentence gave you the motivation to quit and I immediately honourably became the motivation for you to quit. The giving number part was hilarious. I gave you like my hp number except the last digit. Apparently I felt naughty [it was like 3am?] and told you to try calling with all options. It was so funny, you called from 1 to 0, and mine was 0. -.- You said there was this banglah who picked up last at night. HAHHAHAA
Our first date, watching movie and Timbre. I knew you were shy, I was more daring and I purposely moved my head closer to you, during the movie, I felt you were stunned, somehow. Because you were shy. It was amusing and I kept moving closer just because I know you will move away. :D As for Timbre afterwards, I remembered you telling me that this is the first time you actually went on a proper date with a girl. I even dedicated a thank you message at Timbre hahahaha! For treating me as a birthday gift. You put your arm around me. I was a little tipsy, I allowed. But when you tried holding my hand, I pulled away.
We talked on the phone every night. I didn't know what to feel. I have always felt insecure ever since my breakup, that's why I didn't know what to do. Because I felt good when you're around, when I hear your voice on the phone. When you were telling funny things and laughing at everything that I said. Even when I said meh meh chi chao, you can laugh like nobody's business. For the hundredth time, you said I was cute. Repeatedly. Anything that I say was cute to you.
As days passed, I felt really good towards you, and it ironically pulled me away from you. I've been on so many dates with others, and yet I felt nothing. With you, with your contagious laughter, with your ridiculous metal head, I felt really comfortable. Insecurity set in.
Although I felt like I had to repel from you, I went out with you because I couldn't help it. Scape became our favourite hangout place.
Our Lao Di Fang. On our second or third date[i forgot], we sat down and I poured out everything from your bag. We talked about everything and anything, and suddenly as I looked up I realised your face was so close to mine. Our cheeks brushed, and instantly I felt damn shy. I was blushing so hard and everything became slow motioned. We didnt kiss. Because I didnt move. But it left a huge impression in my mind, till now. That infatuation I've had, that instant.
The next day, we went back. This time coincidentally, I brought vodka and hence we bought coke to go along with it. "Drink to our sad lives", I remembered saying. Hahaha that was because I was still hurt and haunted by my past. That was the day we kissed. Somehow, somehow I was holding my phone on camera mode, and somehow we stayed there. Lips brushed, hearts bursting out in flames, imaginary fireworks blasted in our heads.
Actually that was where the [our]pain started. I rejected you for a gazillion times. I remembered you crying so hard. I teared too. I didn't want a relationship because I believed that you will only like me for a while. I was affirmative that your infatuation would go away. It was just a crush. I wouldn't be cute to you like maybe, 1 year down the road. I have been very badly hurt. I could not bring myself to trust anyone to love me for long. Besides, I wasn't looking for short relationships. I want a long, and stable relationship, that will last throughout marriage as well. I was so sure that you'll probably cheat on me like my ex, after getting tired of me. Guys get tired of the same girl in time, so I thought. It's a vicious cycle, I've been there. Guys, woah they like you, then crush on you, infatuated, love kissing you, love hanging out with you, being oh so romantic, doing all the sweetest things, then bang, disagreements, disputes, characters and habits clashed, losing interest, not interested, cheating on you, lying, other girls looked better now, regretted being with the same girl, wanted to see the world, chasing another. Leaving you alone. Heartbroken, promises broken in the process.
You were so upset about my rejections, you even wanted to listen to me falling asleep for nights, you would be so stressed up thinking about my rejections overnight... I'm so sorry baby. I feel awful now, thinking about what I have done to you.
Anyway, as weeks and months passed, I accepted your question once more, in the cab. Ah that was so memorable. ((:
And our adventures continued together. We explored so many foodies and places together. Now I want to travel the world with you.
Okay for today...
There wasn't anything special today other than x'mas shopping with me, you didnt do anything extraordinary or romantic, but the truth is out there. You can make me happy and you can make me sad. You affect my emotions the most. I cannot breathe when you're not there. I don't want anyone else except you. My mind is all about you. Memories of you and I throughout the year flood my mind, like forever.
It all started out when I decided to crash your condo with my friend. I was in a very painful mode, a despaired soul, heart broken and with lack of faith in this world. I was a girl who was honestly love-impaired, I hated anyone and I cried all the time, on buses, when I listened to love songs... anywhere that reminded me of good times that I have had. Happy times which used to belong to me, that were robbed by a heartless someone.
Meeting you somewhere so private wasn't anything I have imagined in meeting a soul mate. Staring away from you in the jacuzzi felt like ages when you and your friend were trying to strike a conversation. Irritation got in the way and I've decided to turn around, face and patronise you guys. I wanted to end the conversation asap. I remembered you standing beside me, waiting for us to pack our bags and fetching us to the restroom. You talked to me. Afterwards you guys wanted our numbers and facebook. Instead of giving generously, I disappeared into the restroom and we never contact ever since... till two weeks later. [by the way. I cant believe you said you almost broke your arm doing weight lifting in the gym when you first saw me walked past. Crush at first sight, you said. >:D HAHAHAHAHA!!! So funnyyyy]
Two weeks later, you got hold of my facebook from my friend, and added me. YOU DIDN'T TALK TO ME! You just left it there, like a dot dot dot. You were shy, you said. That was cute baby. (:
Then two more weeks past, you decided to chat with me. That was the night it started going smoothly. You asked on fb if we could talk on msn. I felt curious about you so I accepted. We talked while I was playing Tetris [sorry baby! Tetris was my fav game and you were 2nd in priority then] and I replied you once in a while. You suddenly talked to me about you smoking and d***ging. That did catch my attention. I was trying to be cool about it, so I simply typed, " Sorry, I dont hang out with smokers." Somehow that sentence gave you the motivation to quit and I immediately honourably became the motivation for you to quit. The giving number part was hilarious. I gave you like my hp number except the last digit. Apparently I felt naughty [it was like 3am?] and told you to try calling with all options. It was so funny, you called from 1 to 0, and mine was 0. -.- You said there was this banglah who picked up last at night. HAHHAHAA
Our first date, watching movie and Timbre. I knew you were shy, I was more daring and I purposely moved my head closer to you, during the movie, I felt you were stunned, somehow. Because you were shy. It was amusing and I kept moving closer just because I know you will move away. :D As for Timbre afterwards, I remembered you telling me that this is the first time you actually went on a proper date with a girl. I even dedicated a thank you message at Timbre hahahaha! For treating me as a birthday gift. You put your arm around me. I was a little tipsy, I allowed. But when you tried holding my hand, I pulled away.
We talked on the phone every night. I didn't know what to feel. I have always felt insecure ever since my breakup, that's why I didn't know what to do. Because I felt good when you're around, when I hear your voice on the phone. When you were telling funny things and laughing at everything that I said. Even when I said meh meh chi chao, you can laugh like nobody's business. For the hundredth time, you said I was cute. Repeatedly. Anything that I say was cute to you.
As days passed, I felt really good towards you, and it ironically pulled me away from you. I've been on so many dates with others, and yet I felt nothing. With you, with your contagious laughter, with your ridiculous metal head, I felt really comfortable. Insecurity set in.
Although I felt like I had to repel from you, I went out with you because I couldn't help it. Scape became our favourite hangout place.
Our Lao Di Fang. On our second or third date[i forgot], we sat down and I poured out everything from your bag. We talked about everything and anything, and suddenly as I looked up I realised your face was so close to mine. Our cheeks brushed, and instantly I felt damn shy. I was blushing so hard and everything became slow motioned. We didnt kiss. Because I didnt move. But it left a huge impression in my mind, till now. That infatuation I've had, that instant.
The next day, we went back. This time coincidentally, I brought vodka and hence we bought coke to go along with it. "Drink to our sad lives", I remembered saying. Hahaha that was because I was still hurt and haunted by my past. That was the day we kissed. Somehow, somehow I was holding my phone on camera mode, and somehow we stayed there. Lips brushed, hearts bursting out in flames, imaginary fireworks blasted in our heads.
Actually that was where the [our]pain started. I rejected you for a gazillion times. I remembered you crying so hard. I teared too. I didn't want a relationship because I believed that you will only like me for a while. I was affirmative that your infatuation would go away. It was just a crush. I wouldn't be cute to you like maybe, 1 year down the road. I have been very badly hurt. I could not bring myself to trust anyone to love me for long. Besides, I wasn't looking for short relationships. I want a long, and stable relationship, that will last throughout marriage as well. I was so sure that you'll probably cheat on me like my ex, after getting tired of me. Guys get tired of the same girl in time, so I thought. It's a vicious cycle, I've been there. Guys, woah they like you, then crush on you, infatuated, love kissing you, love hanging out with you, being oh so romantic, doing all the sweetest things, then bang, disagreements, disputes, characters and habits clashed, losing interest, not interested, cheating on you, lying, other girls looked better now, regretted being with the same girl, wanted to see the world, chasing another. Leaving you alone. Heartbroken, promises broken in the process.
You were so upset about my rejections, you even wanted to listen to me falling asleep for nights, you would be so stressed up thinking about my rejections overnight... I'm so sorry baby. I feel awful now, thinking about what I have done to you.
Anyway, as weeks and months passed, I accepted your question once more, in the cab. Ah that was so memorable. ((:
And our adventures continued together. We explored so many foodies and places together. Now I want to travel the world with you.
Okay for today...
There wasn't anything special today other than x'mas shopping with me, you didnt do anything extraordinary or romantic, but the truth is out there. You can make me happy and you can make me sad. You affect my emotions the most. I cannot breathe when you're not there. I don't want anyone else except you. My mind is all about you. Memories of you and I throughout the year flood my mind, like forever.
I eat, drink and sleep you. I cannot imagine a life without you anymore. I used to think that I can live alone without guys, I used to begin thinking that girls are a better choice. You made me chose you. You proved to me that there is still someone out there who genuinely loves me, for as long as it can be. Your love for me has proven to be simple. Although our age dont match, but we are compatible mentally. You listen, you care and you cheer me up. You are incredibly patient with me. You get mad sometimes but you simply cannot get mad for long...because it's me, hehee.
Recently we went to ArtScience Museum to see Titanic:
Henderson Wave Bridge with a little moon eclipse surprise:
And we went to Universal Studios SG to try the Transformer Ride:
Today, we went shopping and it felt just like a married couple event... we shopped for each other's clothes, we bought our friend's present, went around trying on new clothes, getting approval from both sides. Everything felt great.
By the way baby, I just read an article from somewhere else, and I can totally apprehend what she wrote:
"Everytime I turn to look at him, he'd already be looking at me. When we dine, he would insist on not sitting opposite me but beside me, because he wants to be close to me. During the rare moments where I look at him and he isn't looking at me, he'd be smiling vaguely to himself, apparently very pleased with dunno what."
That is what I felt with you too. And she also mentioned that guys with 10/10 eligibility doesn't mean that they will give you their 100%, they will probably give you only 70-80%. Find a guy with 7-8 points and he will give you a hundred percent. She also brought up the fact that if girls really want a real, stable relationship (commitment based), girls should turn back to the very guy who is seriously infatuated with you, the one who would give you his all, and is ready to spend the rest of his life with you, instead of bad boys, or guys with the eligibility every girl pursue. I don't need a guy who looks super awesome. I don't need guys with money. I just hope to spend my life amongst adventures with someone who truly cares for me, and makes me happy. Someone who loves me for who I am. And that's why, I've never regretted dating you.
And hence I conclude, that I would love to share with you the crazy world that I am in; I would love to share with you the kaleidoscope that I see the world in; I would love to let you in all my secrets in my past, and share my laughter and joy, with you. There is no holding back, from that fateful day you asked me to be your girlfriend.
